Having a cup of coffee in a bright sunny day was a good idea after a long lasting monsoon season. Sun was shining really bright, beautiful, looks like a huge crystal ball, full of freshness, with a scent of nature. I closed my eyes to feel the scented breeze. I was enjoying my nature’s imaginary ride all of sudden my ride took a turn and hit the past. I tried to open my eyes but it seems like someone put glue in between my eyelashes. I am not be able to open my eyes and all buried memories are getting their life back in my imaginary ride. Few were beautiful but few were full of trauma. My ride took a pause on one turn and that turn was a chapter how I lost myself in past. I didn’t cry this time vice versa I laughed.
I remember how stupid I was but that phase was necessary for me because all those years I always underestimated myself, I was living for someone else not for myself. I never loved and praised myself. I always thought if my man love me what else I need, so I accepted his Identity as mine. Ritika was just a name. This made me worthless in the eyes of others. I had no dreams, no desires, he was the only priority. But when this illusion broke I found myself into pieces from inside, my heart got frozen, I was lifeless. It was like I lost myself. But I remember one thing told by my mother that “SUN WILL ALWAYS SHINE BRIGHT” means everyday is a new day, every morning present something fresh to us. All we need to see it. The glue of past over on my eyelashes becoming weak now and I opened my eyes. There is only brightness, sparkle, sun rays making me glow more by falling over on my chubby cheeks. I was smiling, butterflies wrapped my coffee mug. I finished coffee and looked around myself things are really beautiful and the most beautiful thing is me living my own identity. That’s the most precious part inside in me which I finally found. Late but totally worth.
Through this I want to convey that don’t run behind someone who never cares for you. Don’t ever go back to toxic people neither give them chance again in your life because giving them another chance means providing second bullet when they missed the first one to ripped out your heart from your body. I am not saying all are same, I know few people truly change but it’s hard to believe. So never break anyone’s trust who is trusting you like trusting over on own. If you can’t keep someones trust never show them fake dreams because when it breaks, it hurts that you can’t even imagine through what other person is going on. Sometime it cost a life “the universal precious thing” on this earth created by GOD. Few are strong, they recover but few are not.
If you are losing something you will definitely get better same as if you are getting something you have to lose something. There is a cycle in life which always going on GIVE AND TAKE. Give your love, blessings and time to the people around you. Hating someone is natural but don’t hate someone too much that it turn you in totally a negative one. Must try to steal a life from one beautiful moment by living it wholeheartedly with your dear ones. IN THE END “LIFE IS NOTHING IT IS JUST A STORY OF YOUR AND MINE “ JUST LIKE “SUN WILL ALWAYS SHINE BRIGHT.”