THERE IS A FIRE WITHIN ME…

SHE IS MAD BUT SHE IS MAGIC, THERE IS NO LIES IN HER FIRE…

Two years ago, I was going to college by bus for the preparation of an annual function. I was wearing shorts because it was mid-May and really hot. I was sitting and started listing songs by putting earphones and enjoying outside view. I didn’t realize that people inside the bus staring my legs like a hungry vultures. When my stop was nearby I stood up and started moving slowly towards the exit gate of bus. I realized that there is something wrong with me because everyone is staring me. I thought maybe my clothes got torn off, I became very conscious and nervous and started looking my body and clothe from every angle keenly. I found nothing. I didn’t understand why everyone’s eyes full of hunger were glued over on me. Suddenly I heard few words from two women who were talking loudly. They were saying “look at that shameless girl wearing such a short pant. These are the girls who are inviting crimes at their door and when something wrong happened to them, then they are crying and begging for justice and playing the role of fake victims. Their parents forget to teach them how to live in a society. These kinds of girls are characterless who belongs to the cheap family.”

After hearing these words from a women mouth, I became so disturbed and I told driver to stop the bus before my college stop. I ran out from the bus. Eyes were filled with tears, anger, and blood. My veins were tightening. My heart and mind was about to blast. I wanted to shout over on this society who barks without mind and heart. I was crying, these are the tears of anger. I reached college with disturbed mind. My friends asked me about the disturbance but I said nothing. There is a rage of wrath going inside in me. I did nothing in college. I called one of my friends to pick me up from the college. He came and asked what happened, I told him everything. At that point he said nothing. He took me to the Café Coffee day because I love coffee. We had coffee together. He knows that I am really disturbed with those words. Those words were piercing my soul and moving in my mind like a wind.

My friend holds my hand and asked me say what was going inside in me. I was bursted in tears and open my heart that how bad I was feeling. I asked him is it a mistake to wear shorts, is it a mistake to make self-comfortable, is it a mistake to choose what I want to do and what I not? There were thousands questions was bouncing in my mind. I asked him “who is this society to judge my character, my body, my upbringing, my family, my parents on the basis of clothe length? How could they? Such a shameless and brainless words they are barking over on someone’s character without any logic.

My friend said me to calm down. He said you are right, you have rights of yourself but this society will keep on barking, they will try to put you down, to break you at every point of your life. You have two options either learns to use to it or learn to deal with it. It’s your fight; you have to fight it on your own for yourself. “THERE IS A FIRE WITHIN YOU”, burn there words and thinking with it. Don’t hold; speak up as louder as you can. The day when you start speaking, the day society will shut their mouth because THERE IS A FIRE WITHIN YOU my dear. He was right; his words were so powerful which lifted my confidence up to deal with these people from that day.

Message to the society…

You don’t need to tell me what to do,

I got that attitude it’s so new,

Got my own ride, own crib and money in my purse,

My own bread and I know what to choose,

This is how I made my world,

To every woman out there, every little girl,

You are beautiful, wonderful especially powerful,

Live your life to the full,

Because no one can take away your freedom,

Facing the dream, it feeds the soul,

It is your life; you know how to control,

Keep getting strong,

And prove them wrong,

Be the best you can be,

You tried to bring me down but I am still out here standing,

Because there’s a fire within me…